I ran

And I fell. Hard. Now I gotta learn how to stand up and clear up the bloody mess I made. Gotta take it slow and steady from now. Learning what humility really means...

Kewl Kweller

Sometimes people just need a dose of silly, but good music. And I found Ben Kweller. His videos are kinda cheap-looking. But who cares? Good music is what counts. After all, he's got the balls to stuff a tampon up his nostrils to stop his nose from bleeding while performing on stage. Even Tommy Lee couldn't have done that.

Wasted & Ready
Force field super shield AA.
Junior high love affair is OK.
Jump on the big wagon cause I'm so Cal.
I'm big in every way. I'm running as fast as I can.

She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but X thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted but I'm ready.

If you wanna move it so,
why don't you make it go.
Prove to everybody who doesn't understand.
All the nights, all the fights. You are out of sight.
Some say more with their hand. I'm running as fast as I can.

She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but X thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted but I'm ready.

I am wasted but I'm ready. I am wasted but I'm ready.
Running as fast as I can. Running as fast as I can.

Why am I dealing with this feeling?
I'm maxed out like a credit card.
I'll continue to be my worst enemy.
It's easy but it seems so hard.
You're near but you seem so far.

She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but X thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted but I'm ready.

She goes above and beyond her call of duty.
She is a slut but X thinks it's sexy.
Sex reminds her of eating spaghetti.
I am wasted but I'm ready.

I am wasted but I'm ready.
Running as fast as I can.

Creepy crawlies

Or I would rather call them eight-legged freaks. I'm not much of a spider-phobe person. But now I understand why Fear Factor contestants become such wimps and pussies when they're surrounded by spiders. I had more than a few dozen above my head just now. Few dozen ah... Not only a few okay? Where? At the bus stop in front of Serdang KTM station. There's a whole army of them on the roof. I'm still having goosebumps. It's that freaking disgusting. They don't look like those domestic, small, black-coloured ones. They're a bit bigger, kinda like hazelnut-sized, brown-coloured spideys. I know la... Hazelnuts come in all sizes and shapes, but just try to think of the more generic ones can? Some more got holes on their backs. Geli like fuck! Argh!! I can't go on blogging about them spiders. I'm totally grossed out.

5 Reasons Why I Blog

Aduhsssss... Kena tag liao. So have to state the 5 least important reasons of why I blog. Here goes...

1) To whine
Who doesn't?

2) To bitch
I do it all the time in real life. So what makes you think I won't do it in cyberspace?

3) To share
Sometimes about certain cool stuff that comes my job and lately, about Mr. Bun...

4) To fully utilize my Streamyx account
Abuthen... You think so syok to pay RM88 every month ah?

5) To prove the idiocracy of some "minister"
I blog, I'm a female, I'm under 25... But I'm employed. And loving it.

Next up! I tag...
1) Deb
2) Darshini
3) Jasmine
4) Danny
5) Amy

Rock Star Fetish

Are you kidding me? This is what I've missed? @%^$^#$^$@^$^#^%@ Chester is sooooo sexy *drools* The whole leather get-up... Yummy! So shagalicious! Why am I not working for Le Meridien KL ah? I could've sneaked into his room and seduced him. Ok fine. I'll dream about it tonight. At least that's the only thing I can do at the moment. Hmph!!

Doesn't smell too good

I thought it was supposed to be a damn good movie. It actually was... For one-third of it!! The ending really puts me off. I mean, if the script writer is suffering from a writer's block, then take some time off to get inspired. Don't give us movie-goers some shitty piece of work. Thank God I watched it with Mr. Bun. Less pissed off from all the cuddling.

On another note, I found this really funny video from Perez's webbie. Poor kid. He's gonna grow up being laughed at for this. Or become a really famous gay instead.

Got me twisted

Hell hath no fury like a woman's scorn. That is the perfect way to illustrate my feelings right now. It's difficult to describe it, but I guess I'm like a little girl lost in a candy store. Gasping at how amazing and beautiful the world is... Then I stopped at one big and sexy candy, which I wanted real badly. The more I look at it and think of how yummy it would taste, the more badly I want to have it. And before I knew it, someone came and snatched it away from me. Yup, that's kinda like how I'm feeling at the moment. Today is supposed to be perfect. A day off from work to go see Chester Bennington, and come home feeling like I'm in heaven. But noooooooo... All this has to be taken away from me. I'm filled with an unmeasureable amount of rage, hatred and jealousy. I mean, if it were some random people who got the chance to meet Chester up close, I wouldn't mind. But she was so selfish to keep it to herself. Worst, she wasn't even a fan of Chester in the first place!! How bithcy can she get? Saying sorry doesn't get you anywhere, my dear. Can you shove your anger down your throat if I got to snuggle up to Mike Shinoda and you couldn't? I'm so turned off by the whole situation that I can't even stay for the event. Left the miserable place and had lunch with Mr. Bun. He made me smile for a while. But when I got off at the train station and was left alone again, a shield of self-pityness wrapped tightly around me once again. I was clinging on to whatever strength I had to stop myself from breaking down. Now I know how bad it feels to not get what I want. Want so badly... Whatever la. I'm gonna need at least a few days to get this out of my system. At least I get to know another person's real face today. I still love Chester, even more now that he's shown me who's worth being my friend, and who's not. Now I'm gonna have to cross my fingers and pray everyday that Linkin Park's having a concert in Malaysia again.

Spa Virgin No More

Seems like I got plenty of cherries to pop eh? For those who have been following my blog since my Friendster days... You might remember my entry about losing my concert virginity. Yesterday, I went to a spa and well, lost my spa virginity lah! (Btw, why do I have to make everything sound so lewd?) Got off from work yesterday and I went upstairs for a treatment. I don't give my body enough sleep, so I might as well be nice to myself and indulge in a treatment once in a while (Fyi, it's not entirely my fault that I don't get enough sleep every night. It's Mr. Bun's fault). I must say... The spa was pretty impressive at first look. Not as if it was my first time going there, but last week it was just to ask for pricing and stuff like that. The staff were incredibly professional. Let me paint the picture for you. Usually when you step into any retail outlets or anywhere that has to do with monetary transactions, you'll either be greeted with so much warmth and enthusiasm OR people don't give a fcuk about your existence, am I right? Even for those places that gives so-called professional service, the staff are pretty fake, aren't they? They only greet you once they've clocked in and don't give a shit while they're on lunch break, or toilet break, or whatever. At the spa, I was really surprised that the staff who were walking in and out literally stopped in their tracks to greet me. So polite leh. I mean, there was this moment when I was sitting at the waiting area and was staring into space, admiring the setting and suddenly, a staff stopped in front of me while she was passing through and greeted me. Terkejut I...

Anyhoo, I would love to share my experience in detail but umm... I don't want my blog to be X-rated. Don't get me wrong, there are no "special" services offered (I hope!), but it's just unavoidable to feel sensual in a spa because I was literally stripped down. And there was a pair of stranger's hand touching me all over. I tell you... If a delicious hunk was attending to me, I'd be cheating on Mr. Bun big time! Serious! Without any hesitation. Now I see why Yong's friend got hard while he had a spa treatment. LMAO!! Thankfully I had a very nice lady to attend to me la. So I wasn't exposed to the danger of becoming a slut or pervert or anything like that. And who doesn't get naked in a spa? You tell me la. Best part is always the massage. 'Cause I luurrvvveeee massages. Apart from that, I really liked the milk bath. I was soaking in the milky water and it feels so damn good. Feeling rather XXX in the tub too *wink wink*

Ok lah... Enough with my hamsap nonsense. I think I owe you people an introduction of Mr. Bun. He's my beloved sweet boyfriend. Why do I bestow such a name upon him? It's not much of a big thing really. The name just came accidentally from Jasmine and now it's stuck between me and Deb. Even he doesn't know he's called Mr. Bun. He only knows about "Maybank". And if he reads this, he'll know. And I'm ready for questions. Oh... I don't get to sleep 'cause we're on the phone every night for hours. What else were you thinking of? :p

P/S: Here's the spa I was talking about: http://www.jojoba.com.my/jojobaspa_home.asp

Three little words

Make a big difference for two persons in a relationship. They turned my life upside down and suddenly he's the only person wandering this complicated maze in my head. I hope he doesn't get lost in there. When he said them, my heart was pumping so fast that you'd think I was high on drugs. No, I wasn't. It was something else. Blood wasn't just flowing through my veins... You know Niagra Falls? That was the rush I felt. Now how do I bring myself back to reality and just relax? I don't wanna think too much and over-analyze. It's nice to know there's someone who cares and I just wanna be loved.

Taman Linkin

I better work out

I better get high

Gotta slut it out

I'm telling you why

Bennington is coming to town...


Woohoo!! Can April 4th come faster????

Cash Tornado

Wish this entry was about me picking up shitloads of cash... But it's all about the work, baby!! Not that I was really working for this though. Went downstairs to take some photos, met some people, gave out some name cards, bla bla bla... Even got a free copy of MWW. What I really wanted was the free movie pass. But Lil' John didn't give it to me :( One more thing, Sham looks like Vin Diesel. He even sounds like Diesel -.-"

Sweetness

Ashley's no longer a single lonely bitch :)

All smiles

There's not much to be said about today's convocation ceremony. Just to note that I was very excited, to the point where adrenaline took over and I actually forgot that I was sick. And I was smiling and laughing so much... But it didn't bother me 'cause I was truly happy. The feelings came true from the inside. Unlike the short time I spent taking the studio photos, and felt so awkward the whole time. My favourite shot of the day (which excludes the need to post up the other one hundred million photos that I took) is definitely this one...

















My body does have good memory. I felt so beaten down after getting on to the car. My shirt was soaked in sweat after I took off my jacket and gown. Hair was fucked after taking off the mortar board. No worries... I took my meds and will be off to bed soon. I'm working tomorrow anyway. Anyone shopping for holidays at MATTA Fair tomorrow? Come pay me a visit ;) Oh... I'm off to the second convocation session as well. Gotta share my friends' great day. And I don't care if the bosses don't like it. Die die I also must go!!
















Lovely flowers I've received today

Ugly pic

Or should I say ugly pig? I hateeeeeeeee this photo!! My face is puffy and my hair's like shit. I've had three new hairstyles and my hair colour's not even that anymore since this photo was taken. How frustrating can it get? Not to mention the fact that UTAR's gonna project this photo to few thousand people this Saturday, and have already distributed the e-album to a few thousand others. Geraaaammmmm!!!

I should be so thankful

Yes, I should count my blessings indeed. It's just another day for most people out there, but today I discovered three very important things:

1) I have colleagues who are concerned about my well being, even though we've only known each other for less than three months

2) I have friends who love me, and I love them to bits too

3) I have a guy who shares a mutual feeling as I do for him, and wants me more than I want him. Don't get me wrong. I'm just overwhelmed by the attention he's giving me. I've never had guys treating me this way

I'm exploding with all sorts of emotions. Feeling everything at the same time. Love, fear, emptiness, gratitude, fulfilment, hesitation, bla bla bla. Am I asking too much? Thinking too much? Abby and Deb has advised me not to. I know I shouldn't. I even told him not to do the same. So why am I whining? Dunno la. I'm just too complicated for myself to handle.

Would you be my girlfriend?

Chapter 1

That was his question. It came as such a surprise. She never expected him to say those words so soon. Her hands were shaking so badly that she was sipping quickly on her green tea as if it were the elixir of life. Close to the point of gulping. She could only tell him that they shouldn't move too fast. He agreed. But he said he's gonna try harder. "At least I still have the chance." And they continued to talk while invisible pink cotton candy hearts were floating in the air and Cupid was watching closely. The air-conditioning in the cinema nearly froze her to death. She was wishing so badly that she could snuggle up to him for some warmth. But she was too stubborn. And he was too afraid to wrap his arms around her. Maybe afraid that he'll scare her. It was hard enough for him to confess his feelings. She knew about it, and she was feeling the exact same way too but she never knew he was such a shy guy after all. He walked her to the train station after they had dinner. She is such a sushi lover. But she couldn't manage to eat as much as she usually could. Her mind was not concentrated on hunger. Her body was flushed with heat. Primal heat. Passionate blood is once again flowing through her cold veins. She felt coy when their skin brushed against each other. "Why didn't he just grab my hand and hold on tightly to it?" She was screaming inside. All he could manage was to touch her lightly on her shoulder and even more lightly near her hips. Such a shy guy. No one could ever tell. But the connection is there. The feelings are strong. More importantly, the feelings are mutual. How did it happen? No one could ever know. Sparks fly, and it is a beautiful thing for these two young lovers to be able to start a relationship together. It was just the first date. There are more to come. And deep in her heart, she prays everyday for a man she can truly love and love her in return.

My Celebrity Look-alikes

http://www.myheritage.com

Sharon Osbourne? Lol!!!

Just another phase?

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'm beggin you to beg me

I want you to want me
I need you to need me
I'd love you to love me
I'll shine up the old brown shoes, put on a brand-new shirt
I'll get home early from work if you say that you love me

Let's Ride

I fucking love Nicolas Cage in Ghost Rider. He is so damn sexy. Balding or not in real life... I DON'T care. He's soooooo delicious. I watched it at BTS with Eric and Yong this evening. We missed 45 minutes of the show because of some assholes and bought tickets to watch it again on the midnight show. And I loved every second of it!! Poor guys had to bear with me squeal in delight when Nic Cage went topless for a scene *drools*

I HATE ALICE KIM

Old ladies

Jasmine the rebel is back! So we us girls met up at TGIF. We were loud, as usual. Especially when we were joined by Simpson, Kuan Mei and Angel. Kuan Mei's hubby was quiet 'cause he was sick and Angel's boyfriend as well, because we didn't know him. Everyone was really chatty, and we'd find that we didn't know which conversation to pay attention to, because so many people were talking at the same time. Anyway, company was awesome, and the food was great. I'm really glad to catch up with some friends after so long of not seeing them. And it's only been a couple of months! Self-proclaimed Miss World did a good job of introducing the Jack Daniel's Chicken to me. The sauce is just heavenly!! No pics though. No one seem to have brought a camera. I didn't 'cause I had a smaller handbag today.

After Simpson, Kuan Mei+hubby left, we continued with our conversations. We sounded like a bunch of old b****es. (Censor done in honour of CCB. CCB = Chris' Censorship Board. But it sounds like another different thing that is banned under the censorship board, doesn't it? :p) It's funny how Jasmine mentioned that the rest of us sounded so mature. Deb pointed out that all we used to talk about was gossips about the people around us. I think it's more about whining about how awful our alma mater was, really. But now every ingredient of our conversations are heavily seasoned with talks of work, work and more work! I guess it's just that we've moved on to another level in our lives. The one where we are still learning how to be an adult. Nonetheless, I still suck at it. But I'm learning la.

Deb and Miss World are such pathetic liars. I'm gonna ignore that anyway. I'll miss my deb deb ;( I'll have less one friend to listen to my whinings now. At least for 3 years until she's back. Soon I can only whine to her and wait longer for a reply.

P/S: Deb, I wish you all the best. I know it sounds clichéd, but I really mean it. You've made a choice and it might not necessarily have a right or wrong attached to it, but you've chosen a path. So make the best out of it and give it your all. Life is too short for what ifs. But yet too long for a monotonous life. So let go of whatever insecurities, bla bla bla and enjoy yourself, ok?

xoxo
Ashley