Hugs and Kisses

I was watching a movie one moment ago and there's another that my parents were watching on the TV at the same time. And there was one brief moment when two screens showed two couples kissing at the same time too... But with totally different stories happening in their plots.

My movie had Zach Braff and Natalie Portman as two people who found love in each other, but had to let go. The were crying and holding on to each other at these steps at an airport. And it was their goodbye kiss. Nevertheless, he realized that she was the best thing to have happened in his life and came back running for what's worth.

The other had Jaycee Chan and a girl whom I don't know her name kissing in a tent. They were both 16 and drunk on a new year's night out together. And they lost their virginities to each other. The girl ends up being pregnant.

Oh... Can you feel the love tonight??????? I've got Elton John in my head right now.

I miss my bun bun. I wish I was still in his arms and he'd never have to leave. But it's gonna be another two more days. But as the ancient Chinese saying goes, "One day never meet feels like three seasons". I need to go through six bloody seasons. Wtf lah!

Behind the lens

Ever wondered how you look like behind the camera, while you are playing photographer? I'm not talking about the times when you camwhored in front of the mirror to take a picture of yourself while holding a camera, or even take a picture of yourself holding a camera, with another! I looked through my Langkawi trip pictures the other day and found a few pictures of me while I'm busy snapping away.





Yeap, someone's afraid of heights :p



Well, it was raining and I HAD to record Mr. Bun flying several hundred metres in the air.



And then I turned into a ghost.



Some of you might be familiar with this picture. But ever wondered how the original looks like?

BEHOLD!!

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Disclaimer: This picture wasn't faked. Well, at least not on my part anyway :s

I have a confession

I'm a shopaholic. And you hear the sound of the whole world going...

DUH!!!

To make matters worse, there are gazillions of blogs that actually sell some really cute threads. And I see some that are in KL so they are actually available for physical examination before any transaction is made. Oh how I hate shopping online! I've never actually done so. Well, except for movie tickets and hotel reservations. I'd still like to try on stuff before I buy them.

A thought flashed in my mind earlier when I browsed through these websites. Maybe I shouldn't be suffering as a victim of this condition anymore. Maybe I should turn the tables. I should start selling clothes online too! I need the extra money, don't I? Beats putting my money in shares eh? Lol. So yeah... I'm really thinking about it. I can't sell from a physical outlet 'cause you can't get me started on the whole business thingy ever. Maybe I should really put more thought into it. Comments anyone?

Maybe I should take my Bangkok trip as a test run. Buy some pieces and start selling on my blog. If good reaction, great!! If not, then I'll have more birthday gifts this year to give out. Haha!! Watch this space...

This is how a heart breaks

When people around you starts to show signs of old age, and you realize in a blink of a moment that you're not that small brat anymore, who runs to mommy everytime something goes wrong. And when you see the wrinkles on these people's faces, the snow of gray on the mop of their heads and how their body begin to break down... You kinda feel like breaking down in tears sometimes, for not being able to do anything about growing up, turning old.

When romance no longer lasts, and you see people who are in love, falling out of cloud nine. Somewhere along the way, they probably have asked for help. Sought for advises to clear off their heads, to seek intervention into whatever mistake that they're turning their relationship into. And you offer some comforting words, hoping that you can help salvage whatever's left of the wreck they've caused. But when the storm has come and there's nothing left to be undone, you realize that human beings are just fickle minded assholes who can't seem to make up their mind about what they seek in life. Simple things, like whether you're really falling in love or whether it's really just a wildfire of lust burning in your pants.

I'm no love guru by all means. But I think I know what I am seeking in life. Before I met Mr. Bun, I swore that I would NEVER EVER date a typical Chinese. Enough looking at friends who spend their days being told what to wear (or rather what not to wear), where to go and a million of questions about guys' phone numbers in their phonebook. But yet again it does serve them right 'cause they live on their boyfriends so you get what you deserve, and he certainly has a right to get what he's paying for.

So if you ask me if I'm happy now, you wouldn't even need to wait for the answers to come out of my mouth. It's written on my face. I get moments when I'm just wrapped in his arms or lying beside him, and I catch myself smiling at ease. For a brief moment I feel truly happy without having any tangible reason for being so.

Snap back to reality! Whatever happened to my policy of NEVER dating cinapeks? Oh well... My man may be one hell of an uncle but he's my apek with lots of love to give. There's a lot to say about a guy who can withstand my tantrums. Believe me, I have some days pretty bad. And yes, I do fear one day that he'll just walk out on me just because he can't take it all in anymore. But why consume myself in fear? I should change and take control. Rather than just keep saying sorry everytime I lose it and trying to charm him all over again. I should just be a better me. For myself at least. So I try...

But sometimes when I look at other couples falling out of love, I get discouraged about my own. Is it so tempting to leave your loved one for someone new you meet while you're away from home? Is it right to forget the promises you made and whisper the same lies into a new pair of ears? Is it not exhausting to be cheating on your other half, albeit emotionally before you move in for the next kill? Sigh... Show more heart and dedication to your love, people! A relationship is more than just love, more than just sex and more than just two people trying to trust each other. It's hard work. I guess people drift away because they simply end up not wanting to work hard for what they once cherish so deeply. Worse is when they feel a new jolt of excitement from someone new and fall into the same motions over and over. I know it's easy for me to say, I haven't been in a long distance relationship myself. But if I'm ever going to be thrown into such situation, I'm well prepared for it. And I keep my fingers crossed that my other half will be the same too. Times will get very very hard but it's worth the sacrifice if you know what battle you're fighting for.

I'm not pointing any fingers to anyone with this post. I just get frazzled by the hookups and breakups happening around me. More so when people get stuck in between. Having a conclusion would be much better off than having to live within your own indecisions. There's only one thing in my mind right now... If I were a Miss World contestant, I will not wish for world peace. I will wish for all human beings to be filled with more love and strength. World peace will follow soon after.

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